Wordless Wednesday

Rest In Peace Grandma Richardson

How ironic it is that 7 weeks after the birth of our second son we lost another beloved member of our family. We learned this afternoon that Keith's grandmother, Alice(aka. Betty) passed away this morning. 4 months after having Avery we lost my dad...while he was unexpected we knew it was really any day now that his grandma would go to be with God in Heaven.

It's been pretty surreal as we found out as we were waiting for our friends Kristen and Brian to come over. If anything it helped keep our minds off of it. It hasn't really seemed to affect Keith yet, but I know its coming he was very close to her and very fond of her. I have apparently learned that guys grieve in a different way than women do...as I would be a total wreck even if I knew it was going to be any day now...

I can't really say I knew her very well or know much about her...I'm sure in the coming week I'll find out more. As that always seems to be the way it happens. At least now we know she is no longer suffering and is peaceful. She had numerous heart attacks and was showing heart problems and knew eventually that is what would take her from us.

We hadn't been able to visit her in the nursing home for a while now. One everytime we were going to go one of us was sick and we didn't want to get her sick knowing her health wasn't that great. Then we had the baby and sleepless nights...but I was still trying to encourage Keith to go see her knowing he may regret not seeing her...I've learned a lot since my dad leaving us and I didn't want him to feel the same guilt/regret that I feel.

So rest in Peace grandma...you will be sadly missed by us all...

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Mr. Quinn...I think he looks like a little elf!

Monkey boy climbed INTO the pack n play on top of the stuff I piled inside...he thought it was great!

6 week appointment

First off....who said Quinn can be 6 weeks old already? It doesn't seem remotely even possible! I am really hoping he grows out of this fussy/I need to be held all the time stage soon! Its starting to wear on my poor back...and daddy is loosing sleep at night! He seems to be sleeping better at night in the bassinet, as long as he doesn't loose the binky.I may have to try yet another one....

I made it to 6 weeks breastfeeding!!! YAY!! Never thought I would see the end of that very hard and long tunnel but I did! A friend asked me last week if I would keep doing it and I said, YES! After all I made it through the hard part and it should be somewhat easier now.

I went to my 6 week appt today. I don't think I will really miss having to go there every week! Although the staff and dr's are great! I met with the dr who did the c/s and I had no problems or complaints. I did ask why the surgery seemed to take longer( it really was almost 2 hrs long and should have been 45 mins or so). He said no major reason, other than it being my second c/s, I had some adhesions(scaring), and sometimes it takes longer to put things back in. I had minimal blood loss. But other than that, nothing major happened that would prevent me from having another...not that I plan on it! But ask me when the birth isn't so fresh in my mind! He looked at my scar and was boasting about how great of a job he did on stitching me up! It was quite humorous and we both got a good laugh..."I don't mean to brag, but I did a great job!" So all in all everything is fine and I healed perfectly...good thing after all of that.

I also asked about Quinn being breech and he said that he wasn't born breech. Apparently, he turned in 20 mins.

So now I don't go back until Aug, unless I decide on an IUD...but Keith and I have some reading and talking to do first! but so far I'm leaning towards that!

Crunchier than I thought i would be...

this topic has been on my mind for a couple days now. I've seen it alot in some of the online forums that I frequent...alot! I need to do something with my 5 mins of downtime!

Anywho, I never thought I would be a cloth diapering, breastfeeding, baby wearing mama! Let's just say those first 2 are saving us a boat load of money right now!

Diapers: $60(assuming we used a pkg a week at $10/pkg)
Formula: $90(assuming we use a can a week at $15/can)

That's quite a bit of money for one little 6 week old!(he will be 6 weeks on monday)

As for the babywearing...I apparently have a high needs baby that just likes to be held esp. when I'm trying to make dinner. I've tried numerous wraps, slings, and a snugli and NONE seem to be working at the moment. They all pull on my back and it ends up hurting. I'm currently in the process of buying a babyhawk...well a mama made babyhawk. We got a little money when we had the baby so I'll use that towards the purchase of one...for my sanity at least. I was reading today that babies that are held more and carried cry less...let's hope it works! Quinn just has a fussy period in the evening, conviently when Keith gets home, which is good in some sense, but I'm exhausted by then and just want to crash. With a 2 yr old and a 6 week old this can't always happen...so I tend to get the baby. So i'm hoping by wearing him more it might benefit us all and Ill have some sanity left...

Although, I'm pretty "crunchy" I do still vaccinate my kids. But that's a WHOLE other blog and everyone is entitled to their own opinion and this is mine.end.of.story.

what to do, what to do...

Back when I was contemplating closing the daycare for maternity leave, I had thought about closing until september. I figured this would give us PLENTY of time to adjust and hope that Quinn would be sleeping better...or at least I would be sleeping better. In the end I decided not to close that long knowing if I did I would probably loose both kids I watched and we needed the money. So I let go extra time with my boys and my sanity and decided to close for 10 weeks. Reasonable I thought considering i was adjusting to 2 kids and add to that the recovery of the c/s. I still had some resistance.

Well we all know how crappy this economy is so I was thinking about taking the kids back earlier than my June 1st deadline. Until I contacted both parents and now it looks like NEITHER child is coming back and if they do its only part time...ugh.

Now I'm left with a decision...do I readvertise and get a couple more kids and completely loose my sanity or do I just close for the summer and pick it back up in the fall, or not do it at all? For those that think its an easy job its not...but it allowed me to stay home. It doesn't make ANY sense to put both kids in daycare as I wouldn't be making enough full time to make it worth it. Plus I might have separation anxiety. I find after doing daycare for a 1.5 yrs my heart just isn't it to it.

Never leaving the house and dealing with bratty kids and parents drives on a person after a while. So I'm left to decide what do I do?

After talking to Keith he has no problem with me not doing the daycare...the problem lies in our bills and needing the money to cover them. Right now we are riding in the red as Keith's hours got cut and as for the savings, we have none.

I'm hoping to find a part time job I can do at home, data entry or something, but so far all of those are complete crap. Can't work in a restaurant b/c the hours won't work with keith's hours. I have one around to stay with the kids for a couple hours...well my mil but well...no.

I'm thinking maybe ill look into doing a paper route and hope that brings in just a little and will allow me to get out of the house...kid free.

Life just likes to throw me curveballs and I can only hope and pray that God will provide for us!

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avery loved to help give Quinn a bath!