i have so many thoughts swimming around in this brain of mine today that I don't where to start or what to say.
Avery just kills me sometimes.
-It was raining today and he wanted me to go get the dog. He was upstairs tied outside. He kept coming back and forth to get me 3 times before I got the message of what he wanted. He can say Rascal, so I don't know why he doesn't say it!
-refused to take a nap once again. he seems to be in the habit of pooping after i put him down for a nap, i change him, and then in hope i wait to see if he will sleep. he finally did!
-he sat and watched an entire episode of Dora tonight. Didn't budge off the couch...we dont' get to watch it very often b/c they changed the shows on noggin to the most annoying shows of all, when he has time to watch a little tv during dinner(aka while mommy is attempting to make it)
-as soon as dora was over though, music came on and he started laughing! I look over and he is climbing off the couch and he is dancing with a big goofy grin!
-he climbs into the baby swing by himself...next time i will strap him in! he fell face first right into the floor. ouchies! he had great balance other than trying to get out himself!
Avery has to go for a weight check tomorrow. I'm hoping he has gained weight in the last 6 weeks. Here I am trying to loose weight(very unsuccessfully i should add) and he needs to gain it! Well how do i do this without getting him hooked on all kinds of junk food? the last thing I want is a child to have my terrible eating habits! Its funny too b/c when he was a baby everyone(usually strangers, but not always) would say how big of a baby he was. He was never big, but average. Now it seems he has his daddy's metabolism! Damn...I wish I had it!
I feel a bit accomplished today! I cleaned out under my desk, washed the winter coats, scrubbed the tubs, and put some of the clothes away. Someday my husband will clean and organize his office and stop dumping his crap on my stuff in the bedroom. The downstairs of the house looks pretty decent once the toys get picked up. But don't go upstairs. I'm sure it could be worse, I'm just sick of looking at it and don't know what to do with it all. Half the problem is, is that I have no storage in the house. We have an attic, but I don't go up there. I'm afraid the stairs will collapse under me! It will slowly get there I'm sure...I hope.
I have also been "spoiled" the last 3 work days. As I have only had one child for daycare and he leaves at 830. this means Avery and I have the rest of the day to get out of the house and do something. I have very bad cabin fever and hope it goes away soon. I miss leaving the house when I wanted too...but I'm doing it so we can have some extra money. Although, I am running out of places to go, as its still cold and RAINY/SNOWY! hello, its spring! Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 60's but rainy. I'm hoping it will not rain and we can do something. Wish I had someone to do something with as well.
Anyway, I need to go to bed. as amy said, 5:30 comes early! Night!
Monday, March 31, 2008
and the saga continues...
so my dearest amy started LMFA-loose my fat ass, and well all of us have fizzled out of that EXCEPT for Jess. She was the only one to actually loose some weight and keep it off! YAY JESS!!!
so amy joins weight watchers and I have decided to join her. so starting next week, once all the easter candy is gone. We will once again be weight loss buddies. I just wished we didn't live 45 mins away so we could be work out buddies too.
But now that the weather is getting nicer and my son just goes and walks down the road, I will be getting out of the house more.(we do have a fenced in yard with a locked gate, so he can't get out without us!) We will also be purchasing a bike trailer so I can use it after dinner now that it isnt' dark at 5. I also have a very nice cushy bike seat so my va jay jay won't hurt as much. Avery adores being outside and i think he will really like the bike trailer. Plus biking is fairly easy.
Anyone have a suggestion on a bike trailer? i think i know which one we will be getting, but just looking for opinions. Mind you we live on a bumpy dirt road so we will need a heavy duty one, with air filled tires.
I also hope to start hiking...hello i do live in the woods! My son is a lightweight so I can pop him in the backpack and hike away. Plus it will give me some great upper body strength.
wish me luck...i may need it! But I also have a goal as well. I want to loose the weight so we can have another baby. I don't think my husband will wait forever so hopefully this will work this time!
so amy joins weight watchers and I have decided to join her. so starting next week, once all the easter candy is gone. We will once again be weight loss buddies. I just wished we didn't live 45 mins away so we could be work out buddies too.
But now that the weather is getting nicer and my son just goes and walks down the road, I will be getting out of the house more.(we do have a fenced in yard with a locked gate, so he can't get out without us!) We will also be purchasing a bike trailer so I can use it after dinner now that it isnt' dark at 5. I also have a very nice cushy bike seat so my va jay jay won't hurt as much. Avery adores being outside and i think he will really like the bike trailer. Plus biking is fairly easy.
Anyone have a suggestion on a bike trailer? i think i know which one we will be getting, but just looking for opinions. Mind you we live on a bumpy dirt road so we will need a heavy duty one, with air filled tires.
I also hope to start hiking...hello i do live in the woods! My son is a lightweight so I can pop him in the backpack and hike away. Plus it will give me some great upper body strength.
wish me luck...i may need it! But I also have a goal as well. I want to loose the weight so we can have another baby. I don't think my husband will wait forever so hopefully this will work this time!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
For Holly
I said in my previous blog that I had personal experience with premature birth. I personally haven't had a premie child, but someone in my life even closer than Gracie was.
Her name: Holly-relationship: sister. Yup that's right, my sister holly was born at 25-29 weeks from my calculations. She weighed in at 1 lb 5 oz when she was born.( I haven't actually asked my mom how far along she was when she was born, but this is what I have figured it to be) She was all of 12 inches long.
Now if you know me, you know very well that she has survived to this day and is now a healthy 18 year old about to graduated high school. You would never guess she was 18 or even my sister some days. She is stick skinny, blue eyes, light brown, super curly hair. Where I am not so skinny, dark brown hair, and brown eyes.
She was born on Dec. 8, 1989. She wasn't expected to survive (10% chance) and if she did she was never going to walk or talk. Well they certainly were wrong! She beat all the odds! She walks and talks VERY well and even knows how to drive my mom crazy.
I was all of 8 years old when she was born. It was of course right before christmas. We woke up that morning and my dad told us we had a new sister. Hard to believe when I wasnt' even sure I knew my mom was pregnant. Then my dad asked what we should name her, well we came up with Holly b/c of christmas. She got her middle name by accident, but it still works. She was in the NICU at Baystate Hospital in springfield for 5.5 months. Mind you, we lived 1.5 hours away from that hospital, but we were able to go and see her any time we wanted too. I was even able to see her in her incubator.
She did have a heart murmur that required surgery. SHe was hooked up to all the tubes and wires one could possibly imagine. She was tiny and I think she always will be. When she was finally able to come home, my parents had to take a cpr course and she also had a heart monitor one. My dad stopped working and stay home and cared for all of us. The rest of us were in school.
I should also mention she is a great Auntie to Mr. Avery.
She is our miracle in our family even though she might not want to admit that she was ever that small.
So here is another good reason to donate to the MOD. They are here to help all the little babies in the world survive and become strong. I know they helped Amy and Joe and I'm sure they would have helped my family if they were around then.(Being 8, you don't remember a lot of things, and also sometimes your family doesn't share the things with you)
*ok not where i wanted the pics, but i have no idea how to fix it! I will figure it out someday! any pointers let me know!
My dearest Amy
This is for one of my dearest and closest friends, Amy. She writes a great blog that you should definately check out! I can even post a link for you...although most people that read this blog also read hers, but there are a few.
I should explain that Amy and I have only known each other for 4 years. Sometimes it feels like I have known her my whole life, but we have been through MANY life changing obstacles in life. We met our senior year of college. Somehow we connected from day one, we are very similiar in some ways, but different in others like most people are. We lived together for a semester, came from the same part of the state, and had some connections with our family situations. We have laughed, cried, and laughed some more together. She was my maid of honor and I read at her wedding. We experienced pregnancy together and are now raising our kids together. We have gone through good and bad times. She has been by myside from day one and I have a feeling I'll never get rid of her, afterall she is my son's Godmother.
In the past few months, Amy and I have talked a lot about the birth of our children and the fact of whether or not we want more children. Although we have very different experiences to talk about we can still talk as moms and friends about childbirth. As most know, I did not have the idea birth, although Amy did not either. I had an emergency c-section, while she was induced 9 weeks early due to pre-eclampsia.
God has watched over both of us and our children since the day we found out we were pregnant together.(Completely NOT planned) But it was nice to know I had someone to go through the process with. Our kids were supposed to be born 2 weeks apart although it didn't happen. Avery came 10 days late and Gracie was 9 weeks early.
I still remember that day that I got that call that she was going to have Miss Gracie within 3 days. I was scared and I know how scared Amy was as well. I wasn't just scared for Amy, but also little Miss Gracie. You see I know how scary hearing about a child being born that early is.(separate blog) But I also had ALOT of faith in God and in our wonderful technology. I knew deep down that Gracie and Amy would be alright, but it would be a long road.
I saw Gracie when she was just days old. I was a very lucky friend to be able to experience this precious life that God had bestowed upon us all. I was able to witness the miracle that would someday grow to be a beautiful and wonderful little girl. She was very tiny at her 3 lbs 7 oz, but she sure was strong. I saw as her daddy sat there holding her hand, and showing us how to cuddle her without being picked up. I never saw a softer side of Joe, but he does have a great heart!
Gracie Mae was in the NICU for 25 days and then she was finally able to come home. I know she was one of the lucky ones and she had many many people praying for her. I know it was a joyous day for Amy and Joe, along with her HUGE family and friends when she was coming home. She has since day one been a wonderful and smart child. We are all so very lucky to have her in our lives. I look forward to watching her grow up and continue to show us the miracle of life.
Gracie is smart, funny, energetic, almost 19 month old little girl. She is precious and continues to surprise us every day. So in honor of her I encourage everyone to check out her web page on the March of Dimes. Amy had made a beautiful slideshow of her short struggle in life. Beware you may need some tissues. I also encourage you to donate to our team for the March of Babies. We will be walking with Gracie and her family in April. Amy and I are also working on diaper cakes and taggies. SO if you are interested in purchasing those as well don't hesitated to ask. All proceeds are going to the MOD.
Thanks for reading...and for Amy I am always here for you day and night! You are one of my bestest friends and I look forward to all the memories we will have for the rest of our lives together as friends.
http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_page.asp?w=71000022&u=graciesmom905&bt=2
I should explain that Amy and I have only known each other for 4 years. Sometimes it feels like I have known her my whole life, but we have been through MANY life changing obstacles in life. We met our senior year of college. Somehow we connected from day one, we are very similiar in some ways, but different in others like most people are. We lived together for a semester, came from the same part of the state, and had some connections with our family situations. We have laughed, cried, and laughed some more together. She was my maid of honor and I read at her wedding. We experienced pregnancy together and are now raising our kids together. We have gone through good and bad times. She has been by myside from day one and I have a feeling I'll never get rid of her, afterall she is my son's Godmother.
In the past few months, Amy and I have talked a lot about the birth of our children and the fact of whether or not we want more children. Although we have very different experiences to talk about we can still talk as moms and friends about childbirth. As most know, I did not have the idea birth, although Amy did not either. I had an emergency c-section, while she was induced 9 weeks early due to pre-eclampsia.
God has watched over both of us and our children since the day we found out we were pregnant together.(Completely NOT planned) But it was nice to know I had someone to go through the process with. Our kids were supposed to be born 2 weeks apart although it didn't happen. Avery came 10 days late and Gracie was 9 weeks early.
I still remember that day that I got that call that she was going to have Miss Gracie within 3 days. I was scared and I know how scared Amy was as well. I wasn't just scared for Amy, but also little Miss Gracie. You see I know how scary hearing about a child being born that early is.(separate blog) But I also had ALOT of faith in God and in our wonderful technology. I knew deep down that Gracie and Amy would be alright, but it would be a long road.
I saw Gracie when she was just days old. I was a very lucky friend to be able to experience this precious life that God had bestowed upon us all. I was able to witness the miracle that would someday grow to be a beautiful and wonderful little girl. She was very tiny at her 3 lbs 7 oz, but she sure was strong. I saw as her daddy sat there holding her hand, and showing us how to cuddle her without being picked up. I never saw a softer side of Joe, but he does have a great heart!
Gracie Mae was in the NICU for 25 days and then she was finally able to come home. I know she was one of the lucky ones and she had many many people praying for her. I know it was a joyous day for Amy and Joe, along with her HUGE family and friends when she was coming home. She has since day one been a wonderful and smart child. We are all so very lucky to have her in our lives. I look forward to watching her grow up and continue to show us the miracle of life.
Gracie is smart, funny, energetic, almost 19 month old little girl. She is precious and continues to surprise us every day. So in honor of her I encourage everyone to check out her web page on the March of Dimes. Amy had made a beautiful slideshow of her short struggle in life. Beware you may need some tissues. I also encourage you to donate to our team for the March of Babies. We will be walking with Gracie and her family in April. Amy and I are also working on diaper cakes and taggies. SO if you are interested in purchasing those as well don't hesitated to ask. All proceeds are going to the MOD.
Thanks for reading...and for Amy I am always here for you day and night! You are one of my bestest friends and I look forward to all the memories we will have for the rest of our lives together as friends.
http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_page.asp?w=71000022&u=graciesmom905&bt=2
Thursday, March 27, 2008
you know when you need a life when...
the highlight of your day is NOT going to the dr and getting meds to feel better, BUT getting gas for $3.01/gallon. This is a bargain around here...where most of it is 3.07-3.15/gallon. Nothing like getting a great deal on something that I consider most days a necessity. Had lunch with Keith and I was all proud about getting it for that price...ah the life I lead!
on another good note...went to the dr and got 2 meds now to get rid of the nasties "down there". Avery was a peach of course the whole time we were there 1+hours. Everyone kept saying how cute and well behaved he was! Thank God he was having a good day despite this nasty cold he caught! hopefully cold season is almost over!
on another good note...went to the dr and got 2 meds now to get rid of the nasties "down there". Avery was a peach of course the whole time we were there 1+hours. Everyone kept saying how cute and well behaved he was! Thank God he was having a good day despite this nasty cold he caught! hopefully cold season is almost over!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
will i ever be or feel normal again?
I have been thinking a lot about this lately...I don't think I am depressed by any means, but stuck in a rut. I'm not sure if I will ever climb back out and be on the top either. I would like to think that I will be able to, but can't seem to find the will power or where to get help to get back....
I'm always tired lately...I usually blame it on af, but af has been over for a week now. I know I don't get to bed as early as I would like to and I get up early. I just need a few minutes each night to get things done that I haven't gotten done all day...clean up after dinner, fold laundry, put dishes away etc. Then I will finally collapse into the computer chair to catch up on the outside world. I "talk" to my friends Amy and Jess, read email, and that's about it. Even lately we've all be so busy that I haven't been able to talk to them much. I wish they lived closer so they can save me from my insanity.
Of course I have my husband, but he has things to do when he gets home as well. He also is not very good at managing his time. He has gotten better in helping around the house kind of...I am still waiting for him to clean his office and set up a sewing table so I can get back to the things I love to do! Like making quilts, pillows, or working on some fundraising stuff for the March of dimes. Maybe I would feel like just a drag or that my life is just boring...
I would love to go to a scrapbook class or even the gym, but all these things cost money. Don't people realize they need to hold these things for free or cheap so people like me can get out of the house and do something? I am still suffering from cabin fever. Hopefully tomorrow and Friday I will get out of the house to do something other than going to the dr. I just wish I had someone to do it with. All my friends work and live in other parts of the state...
I'm thinking I should talk to my dr how I don't sleep as well as I once did, but he can't really give me something to help that. If he did, then I wouldn't be able to hear my son if he happens to wake during the night. Keith won't be able to hear him...So I am at a stand still.
Somedays I think I need a shrink to help me unravel my life. But you know that cost money and finding the time to do it. Why don't they have more resources for people out there, so they don't feel down in the dumps all the time. Maybe they do and I just don't know where to find them, help? anyone?
I know I need to loose weight, but I can't seem to find the time to push myself into doing it. I don't get a lunch break, like I used too. I'm lucky I am able to sit and type this blog while both boys sleep...Gosh what I wouldn't give to sleep! I need to force myself into this...I know there isn't any easy way. We have altered our eating habits and of course don't you know, my husband looses weight and I seem to gain it? I crave chocolate so we won't talk about the Easter candy I bought and have been feeling guilty about eating ever since...
I'm not sure if the dr will be much help or what he will be able to tell me. Go to bed earlier and find the time to be myself would be a good start. But something always seems to come up and my expectations seem to fizzle.
Someday maybe I won't feel like this!
I'm always tired lately...I usually blame it on af, but af has been over for a week now. I know I don't get to bed as early as I would like to and I get up early. I just need a few minutes each night to get things done that I haven't gotten done all day...clean up after dinner, fold laundry, put dishes away etc. Then I will finally collapse into the computer chair to catch up on the outside world. I "talk" to my friends Amy and Jess, read email, and that's about it. Even lately we've all be so busy that I haven't been able to talk to them much. I wish they lived closer so they can save me from my insanity.
Of course I have my husband, but he has things to do when he gets home as well. He also is not very good at managing his time. He has gotten better in helping around the house kind of...I am still waiting for him to clean his office and set up a sewing table so I can get back to the things I love to do! Like making quilts, pillows, or working on some fundraising stuff for the March of dimes. Maybe I would feel like just a drag or that my life is just boring...
I would love to go to a scrapbook class or even the gym, but all these things cost money. Don't people realize they need to hold these things for free or cheap so people like me can get out of the house and do something? I am still suffering from cabin fever. Hopefully tomorrow and Friday I will get out of the house to do something other than going to the dr. I just wish I had someone to do it with. All my friends work and live in other parts of the state...
I'm thinking I should talk to my dr how I don't sleep as well as I once did, but he can't really give me something to help that. If he did, then I wouldn't be able to hear my son if he happens to wake during the night. Keith won't be able to hear him...So I am at a stand still.
Somedays I think I need a shrink to help me unravel my life. But you know that cost money and finding the time to do it. Why don't they have more resources for people out there, so they don't feel down in the dumps all the time. Maybe they do and I just don't know where to find them, help? anyone?
I know I need to loose weight, but I can't seem to find the time to push myself into doing it. I don't get a lunch break, like I used too. I'm lucky I am able to sit and type this blog while both boys sleep...Gosh what I wouldn't give to sleep! I need to force myself into this...I know there isn't any easy way. We have altered our eating habits and of course don't you know, my husband looses weight and I seem to gain it? I crave chocolate so we won't talk about the Easter candy I bought and have been feeling guilty about eating ever since...
I'm not sure if the dr will be much help or what he will be able to tell me. Go to bed earlier and find the time to be myself would be a good start. But something always seems to come up and my expectations seem to fizzle.
Someday maybe I won't feel like this!
Tour of my home town
Amy "tagged" me to write 10 places I would take people to in my home town. Well I'm not sure I can come up with 10 places, b/c it seems that everything worth doing in my town isn't in my town...so we shall see how far I can get!
I should warn you...I grew up in the sticks.
1. Breakfast at Johnson's Sugar House-I hear it is pretty good there for breakfast and I've never been so we shall go!
2. We can take the kids to the park and run off some energy.
3. Head up to my parents house and take a swim in the lake. While we are there we can go finishing and canoueing.(sp?)
4. Lunch time, can be eaten outside at the 1880 house. They have great coffee and sandwiches.
5. Off to some mini golf (or driving range) and the go carts.(at 202 sports)
6. Then we can head on over the to airport and watch the Jumptown skydivers fall from the sky.
7.Dinner, during the summer at least, can be had at Anne's Dairy Drive-In. Best seafood in town and even better ice cream. Plus I used to work there back in the day.
8. If its a Friday night we can head on over to the the band concert in the park.
9. We can always go for a hike in the woods...
well i got to 9, and now my son wants to type so maybe I will come up with number 10 later. Sorry its not more exciting in orange...but you gotta love it!
I should warn you...I grew up in the sticks.
1. Breakfast at Johnson's Sugar House-I hear it is pretty good there for breakfast and I've never been so we shall go!
2. We can take the kids to the park and run off some energy.
3. Head up to my parents house and take a swim in the lake. While we are there we can go finishing and canoueing.(sp?)
4. Lunch time, can be eaten outside at the 1880 house. They have great coffee and sandwiches.
5. Off to some mini golf (or driving range) and the go carts.(at 202 sports)
6. Then we can head on over the to airport and watch the Jumptown skydivers fall from the sky.
7.Dinner, during the summer at least, can be had at Anne's Dairy Drive-In. Best seafood in town and even better ice cream. Plus I used to work there back in the day.
8. If its a Friday night we can head on over to the the band concert in the park.
9. We can always go for a hike in the woods...
well i got to 9, and now my son wants to type so maybe I will come up with number 10 later. Sorry its not more exciting in orange...but you gotta love it!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I'm falling apart!
So my body officially hates me today...there are many days I hate being a girl especially that time of month, but I'm also having other issues that I won't bore you with the gorey details! I have a dr's appointment on thursday..oh joy.
Anyway, our jealous dog yesterday decides to jump the fence yet again...but this time he was tied up so he could have choked himself. I should have left him like that, but then I would look like a bad "mommy". So both boys were in the wagon as we were headed for a little walk. So I grabbed Rascal's leash and the wagon, and went and rescued him. He actually walked fine knowing I was pulling the wagon with 2-22 lb boys in it. The dog is always VERY GOOD around the kids. This was until the little boy's dad showed up...and he pulled and yanked so hard that I think my hand is bruised and hurts like HELL! Plus the fact that my whole body is sore and only getting worse as the day progressed. It could possibly be from the 44 lbs I was pulling and the 60 lb dog...but I wanted a workout right? Not the way I intended it to be...
HOpefully, I will recover tonight and get rid of this headache as well. oh well off to bed...if i can sleep!
Anyway, our jealous dog yesterday decides to jump the fence yet again...but this time he was tied up so he could have choked himself. I should have left him like that, but then I would look like a bad "mommy". So both boys were in the wagon as we were headed for a little walk. So I grabbed Rascal's leash and the wagon, and went and rescued him. He actually walked fine knowing I was pulling the wagon with 2-22 lb boys in it. The dog is always VERY GOOD around the kids. This was until the little boy's dad showed up...and he pulled and yanked so hard that I think my hand is bruised and hurts like HELL! Plus the fact that my whole body is sore and only getting worse as the day progressed. It could possibly be from the 44 lbs I was pulling and the 60 lb dog...but I wanted a workout right? Not the way I intended it to be...
HOpefully, I will recover tonight and get rid of this headache as well. oh well off to bed...if i can sleep!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
"Oh where, Oh where, Has my....
weekend gone? It seems like every weekend lately we have been go go go all weekend. What happen to just relaxing and spending a leisurely day with my family...I haven't had one of those in a VERY long time! Nevermind the fact that my husband has been MIA after work since Ash wednesday! Well, Heather, that is what happens when you marry the church organist, but look at the bright side, it practically covers your mortgage!
Today was crazy busy! Keith decided last night at 11:30 that we needed to go out to breakfast this morning. He was STARVING b/c he had to fast for Good Friday. Well the place we like to go and at his request, you need to get there early or be prepared to wait with a not so patient almost 16 month old!
We had our breakfast, went to the bank & post office, got avery's hair cut, and drove to a home improvement store in springfield, stopped at farm stand, and then came home. Attempted to put avery down for a nap, no such luck. Then I had to go to walmart, the grocery store, and to get my hair cut...all done in 2 hours to get back here so Keith can leave for church!
Got home, put avery to bed, unloaded and put away groceries, and FINALLY ate dinner at 7:30. Then I had to make potatoes for tomorrow and get other things ready so all I have to do is pop them in the over to reheat and I can RELAX!
So Easter sunday dinner consists of: Bourbon Glazed ham(no alcohol), roasted garlic+sour cream mashed potatoes with bacon and cheese, roasted carrots, cheese bread and roasted garlic crusty bread, whatever my mom brings(green bean casserole or broc/cheese casserole), and for dessert: pineapple lush cake or strawberry shortcake(you choose!)
Mean while in the middle of all the prepping, my deal Amy calls. I have a question she says...is it ok to buy plastic play food for Gracie if they are marked 3+ years on it? I said I don't see why you can't as long as there are no little pieces. I bought Avery a no spill bubble container that was also marked 3+years and so was the little back pack I picked up for him...sometimes I wonder who puts the ages on this stuff! Maybe we just have some very smart kids!
So finally I am sitting at the computer, drinking my Parrot Bay, wishing it was quiet, but Keith's computer is LOUD! He is on his way home finally...and then I am off to bed for a fun and thrilling easter. I got some eggs to hide for avery in the morning and his little bag of toys. I put the Gerber Grads fruit snacks in them instead of candy. They are pretty tasty if you ask me and don't get stuck in your teeth like the other fruit snacks do. Hopefully Avery will like them!
Happy Easter everyone!
Today was crazy busy! Keith decided last night at 11:30 that we needed to go out to breakfast this morning. He was STARVING b/c he had to fast for Good Friday. Well the place we like to go and at his request, you need to get there early or be prepared to wait with a not so patient almost 16 month old!
We had our breakfast, went to the bank & post office, got avery's hair cut, and drove to a home improvement store in springfield, stopped at farm stand, and then came home. Attempted to put avery down for a nap, no such luck. Then I had to go to walmart, the grocery store, and to get my hair cut...all done in 2 hours to get back here so Keith can leave for church!
Got home, put avery to bed, unloaded and put away groceries, and FINALLY ate dinner at 7:30. Then I had to make potatoes for tomorrow and get other things ready so all I have to do is pop them in the over to reheat and I can RELAX!
So Easter sunday dinner consists of: Bourbon Glazed ham(no alcohol), roasted garlic+sour cream mashed potatoes with bacon and cheese, roasted carrots, cheese bread and roasted garlic crusty bread, whatever my mom brings(green bean casserole or broc/cheese casserole), and for dessert: pineapple lush cake or strawberry shortcake(you choose!)
Mean while in the middle of all the prepping, my deal Amy calls. I have a question she says...is it ok to buy plastic play food for Gracie if they are marked 3+ years on it? I said I don't see why you can't as long as there are no little pieces. I bought Avery a no spill bubble container that was also marked 3+years and so was the little back pack I picked up for him...sometimes I wonder who puts the ages on this stuff! Maybe we just have some very smart kids!
So finally I am sitting at the computer, drinking my Parrot Bay, wishing it was quiet, but Keith's computer is LOUD! He is on his way home finally...and then I am off to bed for a fun and thrilling easter. I got some eggs to hide for avery in the morning and his little bag of toys. I put the Gerber Grads fruit snacks in them instead of candy. They are pretty tasty if you ask me and don't get stuck in your teeth like the other fruit snacks do. Hopefully Avery will like them!
Happy Easter everyone!
Friday, March 21, 2008
Being a mom part 2
when you become a mom you learn to do without a lot of things in life! But would you ever go back? Most if not all, would say never! I sure wouldn't go back and want to be childless after experiencing what I have in the past 15(closer to 16 months.)
First off, I didn't have the labor or delivery I personally wanted. I was going to attempt no epi or pain reliever, despite what people have told me. After all its my decision. Well, Mr. Avery wasn't coming out...and he might have just stayed there forever. I had a bad feeling when my due date came and went...10 days later I am laying in the hospital, hooked up to pitocin, and the nurse asking me if I am having contractions. Umm...HELLO! you have me maxed out on the pit, why wouldn't I have contractions, my body doesn't hate me that much! Well 10 hours later I managed to progress from 1 cm to 1 cm...you need to be 10 cm. So they stopped the pit. Then Avery was having heart decels so they rushed me in for an emergency c-section. Finally, at 8:20 pm he was born.
Looking back on his birth, which is something I seem to do often lately b/c we keep talking about another baby, I can't help but remember or not remember Avery's birth. It was all a blur. So it was probably a combination of the drugs they had me on, the spinal, and just pure exhaustion. You know in the baby book where they ask, mom's first thought after birth, well mine was "he looks like Jason!(my brother) that's it, no oh he's beautiful/handsome, he's wonderful nothing...so that's frustrating to me. Of course he is just about the most handsome kid I know now, but I am also a bit partial!
My husband and I soon became very sleep deprived, one being I was sliced open across my abdomine and I couldn't tend to the baby, so my husband who doesn't know much about babies at the time, takes care of him! Thank God for him and for putting up with the fact that I couldn't dress myself, walk, or climb the stairs.
After having a baby there is just nothing left to be desired. Every person possible has either seen "down" there, your insides, or your attempt to breastfeeding.(that's a whole other blog) so you pretty much give up your body, sleep, and anything associated with it!
-New clothes? hardly know what those are....clothes with stains that you've had for 4 years since you graduated college, yup that's what I got. Good thing Amy is going to take me shopping to buy some new ones!
-personal time?-haha, what's that? I hardly can pee without someone watching. Afterall you must be able to see mommy at all times! Luckily, amy has rescued me from this at least once a month.
-time with my husband? yeah that's mostly gone too...but at least we still sleep in the same bed, and talk before I crash...so 5 minutes tops!
-sleep? I used to be a great sleeper, could sleep through ANYTHING soundly! not so much anymore and it really pisses me off! I love to sleep and I LOVE my bed. I either ache or toss and turn. Then my husband snores! Its a never ending cycle. My son has slept through the night for 7+ months now, why the hell can't I?
-hot dinner? don't know what that tastes like either
-food not being shared with a toddler? been missing that for a while now!
-clothes without some kind of food, snot, or other unmentionables on them...don't have many of those either. I can't help that I'm a mess some days, but add on a toddler that just loves to share everything with you!
But you know....listening to the big belly laugh(like we had so many today), watching the smile and dimples creep across his face, getting snuggles, and watching the dancing is worth every little thing I have sacrifice for that sleeping littly baby across the hall! He is worth every penny I have stretched 10 ways to be able to stay home with him. He was worth the surgery and the recovery. He was worth loosing all the free time I once had.
and someday when the time is right...I will have another one, but that also means loose more "time", but it can't be much worse than having 3 babies for 8 hours during the day. so i know I could handle it...eventually!
First off, I didn't have the labor or delivery I personally wanted. I was going to attempt no epi or pain reliever, despite what people have told me. After all its my decision. Well, Mr. Avery wasn't coming out...and he might have just stayed there forever. I had a bad feeling when my due date came and went...10 days later I am laying in the hospital, hooked up to pitocin, and the nurse asking me if I am having contractions. Umm...HELLO! you have me maxed out on the pit, why wouldn't I have contractions, my body doesn't hate me that much! Well 10 hours later I managed to progress from 1 cm to 1 cm...you need to be 10 cm. So they stopped the pit. Then Avery was having heart decels so they rushed me in for an emergency c-section. Finally, at 8:20 pm he was born.
Looking back on his birth, which is something I seem to do often lately b/c we keep talking about another baby, I can't help but remember or not remember Avery's birth. It was all a blur. So it was probably a combination of the drugs they had me on, the spinal, and just pure exhaustion. You know in the baby book where they ask, mom's first thought after birth, well mine was "he looks like Jason!(my brother) that's it, no oh he's beautiful/handsome, he's wonderful nothing...so that's frustrating to me. Of course he is just about the most handsome kid I know now, but I am also a bit partial!
My husband and I soon became very sleep deprived, one being I was sliced open across my abdomine and I couldn't tend to the baby, so my husband who doesn't know much about babies at the time, takes care of him! Thank God for him and for putting up with the fact that I couldn't dress myself, walk, or climb the stairs.
After having a baby there is just nothing left to be desired. Every person possible has either seen "down" there, your insides, or your attempt to breastfeeding.(that's a whole other blog) so you pretty much give up your body, sleep, and anything associated with it!
-New clothes? hardly know what those are....clothes with stains that you've had for 4 years since you graduated college, yup that's what I got. Good thing Amy is going to take me shopping to buy some new ones!
-personal time?-haha, what's that? I hardly can pee without someone watching. Afterall you must be able to see mommy at all times! Luckily, amy has rescued me from this at least once a month.
-time with my husband? yeah that's mostly gone too...but at least we still sleep in the same bed, and talk before I crash...so 5 minutes tops!
-sleep? I used to be a great sleeper, could sleep through ANYTHING soundly! not so much anymore and it really pisses me off! I love to sleep and I LOVE my bed. I either ache or toss and turn. Then my husband snores! Its a never ending cycle. My son has slept through the night for 7+ months now, why the hell can't I?
-hot dinner? don't know what that tastes like either
-food not being shared with a toddler? been missing that for a while now!
-clothes without some kind of food, snot, or other unmentionables on them...don't have many of those either. I can't help that I'm a mess some days, but add on a toddler that just loves to share everything with you!
But you know....listening to the big belly laugh(like we had so many today), watching the smile and dimples creep across his face, getting snuggles, and watching the dancing is worth every little thing I have sacrifice for that sleeping littly baby across the hall! He is worth every penny I have stretched 10 ways to be able to stay home with him. He was worth the surgery and the recovery. He was worth loosing all the free time I once had.
and someday when the time is right...I will have another one, but that also means loose more "time", but it can't be much worse than having 3 babies for 8 hours during the day. so i know I could handle it...eventually!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
addiction!
so I came to realize last night that I have a problem!
My name is Heather and I am a cvs addict!
This might sound weird, but its true! I hunt ever week for the best deals especially at cvs. How can you not "buy" things that are free or they actually pay you to get the product. I have figured out how to work the system between coupons, store coupons, and their ecb system. To the point where we won't be running out of body wash, razors, toothpaste, or shampoo for a VERY long time! we bought a seperate cabinet to put in our bathroom just for this stockpile. The stuff never expires so why not have it! By the way, the closet is chuck full of stuff! Its falling off the shelves I have so much....
Last night I walked out of the store with $42 worth of merchandise for $2 and some change, but I still have $15-20 worth of cvs money to spend! I may have to go for a luxury spending spree soon, as I don't know how much more shampoo, soap, and deorant a family of 3 can handle! I even have a stockpile of diapers and wipes! But I assure you all I have never spent much money on any of it!
Some stuff I keep on hand just for when people visit. I have a friend who is notorious for forgetting things like her toothbrush, deoderant, or razor. I have people come that don't bring there own toothpaste knowing that i practically own cvs in the house. They are surprised when I don't have something...I have children's motrin that my son won't use for at least 2 more years, why? b/c it was cheap and doesn't expire until 2010...
Its an addiction I tell you...as my husband put it, we if don't have money at least we will always be clean and smell good! He's saying this as I am STUFFING more items into the closet!
There is nothing like getting stuff for free..especially when its name brand and its needed!
My name is Heather and I am a cvs addict!
This might sound weird, but its true! I hunt ever week for the best deals especially at cvs. How can you not "buy" things that are free or they actually pay you to get the product. I have figured out how to work the system between coupons, store coupons, and their ecb system. To the point where we won't be running out of body wash, razors, toothpaste, or shampoo for a VERY long time! we bought a seperate cabinet to put in our bathroom just for this stockpile. The stuff never expires so why not have it! By the way, the closet is chuck full of stuff! Its falling off the shelves I have so much....
Last night I walked out of the store with $42 worth of merchandise for $2 and some change, but I still have $15-20 worth of cvs money to spend! I may have to go for a luxury spending spree soon, as I don't know how much more shampoo, soap, and deorant a family of 3 can handle! I even have a stockpile of diapers and wipes! But I assure you all I have never spent much money on any of it!
Some stuff I keep on hand just for when people visit. I have a friend who is notorious for forgetting things like her toothbrush, deoderant, or razor. I have people come that don't bring there own toothpaste knowing that i practically own cvs in the house. They are surprised when I don't have something...I have children's motrin that my son won't use for at least 2 more years, why? b/c it was cheap and doesn't expire until 2010...
Its an addiction I tell you...as my husband put it, we if don't have money at least we will always be clean and smell good! He's saying this as I am STUFFING more items into the closet!
There is nothing like getting stuff for free..especially when its name brand and its needed!
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Being a mom....
It's amazing to me the things you learn when you become a mom. You learn how to:
-change a diaper in 5 seconds flat
-change a diaper with a moving target
-mulitasking: is the key to living...if you can't do this well you might just fail!
-how to fit more things than possible into a diaper bag. I mean who knew a little kid could need so much stuff!
-the highlight of your day might just be NAP TIME! the time for you to think peacefully without a child running by, screaming, or blabbing away!
-the ability to cook, clean, or do dishes with a child glued to your leg or pushing you away from the counter.
there are plenty of more things, but my brain stopped functioning at 9:27 pm so that is the list for now!
I do have to say that being a mom is the best job in the world. I wouldn't trade it for any amount of money anyone was to offer! You can't get paid any better than with kisses, hugs, high fives, or just a goofy smile or laugh. Let me tell you Avery's laugh is VERY contagious. The smile is pretty good too! Tonight at dinner he had applesauce, well he was laughing hysterically and we weren't sure why...well he was clapping his hands together and splashing the applesauce on his face, apparently it felt funny.
The kid is smart too! Tonight we said, "want to go visit great grandma?" and off he went to get his coat. Now the coat is in the bathroom over a child gate. He reached his hand in, and grabbed the coat. we told him to put it on...well he attempted. But as soon as he got it on out the door he went! he loves to be out there, i just wish it was warmer out! he walks himself right to the car, attempts to open it, and climbs in...
He might not talk much, but he does babble a lot! At least I know he understands when I ask him to do something, he actually does it(well most of the time). I know his words will come with time...of course he might not get much in word wise with a mommy and daddy like us. But he accels in other areas.
SOmetimes it is nice to know that you are doing a great job being a mom. I don't always feel like this, sometimes i feel like I don't do enough with him during the day. we don't play enough games, sing, dance, or just be silly. But I know that I do as much as this little kid can handle. I have caught him numerous time lately "reading" a book to himself. He loves books like his momma. He will dance any time the cell phone rings or music comes on the tv.(so its dancing in a circle...) the house phone rings and he yells "dada", the little boy i watch looses his binky and he gently places it back in(or tries). He sticks his tongue out to anyone that walks through the door..why i have yet to determine, but he does. he always waves when you leave. He even hand feeds the dog his food and Rascal tolerates him very well!
ok my husband keeps interrupting me with pointless crap so i have to end the blog...my thoughts are gone!
-change a diaper in 5 seconds flat
-change a diaper with a moving target
-mulitasking: is the key to living...if you can't do this well you might just fail!
-how to fit more things than possible into a diaper bag. I mean who knew a little kid could need so much stuff!
-the highlight of your day might just be NAP TIME! the time for you to think peacefully without a child running by, screaming, or blabbing away!
-the ability to cook, clean, or do dishes with a child glued to your leg or pushing you away from the counter.
there are plenty of more things, but my brain stopped functioning at 9:27 pm so that is the list for now!
I do have to say that being a mom is the best job in the world. I wouldn't trade it for any amount of money anyone was to offer! You can't get paid any better than with kisses, hugs, high fives, or just a goofy smile or laugh. Let me tell you Avery's laugh is VERY contagious. The smile is pretty good too! Tonight at dinner he had applesauce, well he was laughing hysterically and we weren't sure why...well he was clapping his hands together and splashing the applesauce on his face, apparently it felt funny.
The kid is smart too! Tonight we said, "want to go visit great grandma?" and off he went to get his coat. Now the coat is in the bathroom over a child gate. He reached his hand in, and grabbed the coat. we told him to put it on...well he attempted. But as soon as he got it on out the door he went! he loves to be out there, i just wish it was warmer out! he walks himself right to the car, attempts to open it, and climbs in...
He might not talk much, but he does babble a lot! At least I know he understands when I ask him to do something, he actually does it(well most of the time). I know his words will come with time...of course he might not get much in word wise with a mommy and daddy like us. But he accels in other areas.
SOmetimes it is nice to know that you are doing a great job being a mom. I don't always feel like this, sometimes i feel like I don't do enough with him during the day. we don't play enough games, sing, dance, or just be silly. But I know that I do as much as this little kid can handle. I have caught him numerous time lately "reading" a book to himself. He loves books like his momma. He will dance any time the cell phone rings or music comes on the tv.(so its dancing in a circle...) the house phone rings and he yells "dada", the little boy i watch looses his binky and he gently places it back in(or tries). He sticks his tongue out to anyone that walks through the door..why i have yet to determine, but he does. he always waves when you leave. He even hand feeds the dog his food and Rascal tolerates him very well!
ok my husband keeps interrupting me with pointless crap so i have to end the blog...my thoughts are gone!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Cost of getting healthy!
Why is it in this country that 65% of americans are over weight, yet it cost so DAMN much to join a gym or to get a personal trainer, you know someone to kick your a$$.
So to some $20 a month might not be bad to join the gym, but then you have the sign up free of 30-50 bucks...why make it so cheap and then add on more charges? THen you add it up over a year and that's a BIG chunk of change especially on only one income.
I can bargain shop for anything else in my life like clothes, food, health care, etc. But can't find a good deal on joining a gym. Nevermind the cost of gas to get to the gym
My problem is to have motivation. I had it once, and now it has left! I felt so good for once loosing weight and getting healthy, but once again I have fallen into a slump like I was determined not to do! I need a friend to motivate me to go to the gym 3 times a week or at least my husband. But that then comes into play is someone to watch Avery while we go to the gym.
All my friends live far away and we tried to do a daily blog, but apparently its not working anymore! At least its staying lighter out at night and hopefully it will get warmer soon so I can at least start walking/hiking. I still need someone to go with! I live in a safe neighborhood and a small town. You would think I would be ok going out by myself or with Avery, but I don't always feel safe. I feel like someone could attack me and no one would hear me b/c no one is around my area! Not a good feeling to have, i do take my cell phone with me.
At least healthy insurance should help defray the cost of using a gym...but most dont. Especially when you are paying out the nose for health care as it is and you are a seemingly healthy person. I am hardly sick and very rarely go to the dr unless its for a yearly exam. Of course they tell me the same thing all the time, loose weight and excercise! well help me to afford these things financially! I clearly can't afford to have my own gym in my house!
The way this world works sometimes confuses me!
So to some $20 a month might not be bad to join the gym, but then you have the sign up free of 30-50 bucks...why make it so cheap and then add on more charges? THen you add it up over a year and that's a BIG chunk of change especially on only one income.
I can bargain shop for anything else in my life like clothes, food, health care, etc. But can't find a good deal on joining a gym. Nevermind the cost of gas to get to the gym
My problem is to have motivation. I had it once, and now it has left! I felt so good for once loosing weight and getting healthy, but once again I have fallen into a slump like I was determined not to do! I need a friend to motivate me to go to the gym 3 times a week or at least my husband. But that then comes into play is someone to watch Avery while we go to the gym.
All my friends live far away and we tried to do a daily blog, but apparently its not working anymore! At least its staying lighter out at night and hopefully it will get warmer soon so I can at least start walking/hiking. I still need someone to go with! I live in a safe neighborhood and a small town. You would think I would be ok going out by myself or with Avery, but I don't always feel safe. I feel like someone could attack me and no one would hear me b/c no one is around my area! Not a good feeling to have, i do take my cell phone with me.
At least healthy insurance should help defray the cost of using a gym...but most dont. Especially when you are paying out the nose for health care as it is and you are a seemingly healthy person. I am hardly sick and very rarely go to the dr unless its for a yearly exam. Of course they tell me the same thing all the time, loose weight and excercise! well help me to afford these things financially! I clearly can't afford to have my own gym in my house!
The way this world works sometimes confuses me!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Crossing Paths
There are always people in your life that make you wonder, what did you do to deserve to cross paths with them? How did you get so lucky to have them in your life and to experience things with them?
I have met a lot of people in my life...some have come and gone, while many have stayed. As I do cherish each and every person I have come in contact with, shared a special memory with, or a not so good memory, I have to say the girls I met in college have become some of the best friends a girl could ever have!
Here we are almost 4 years out of college and we are still all great friends. We see each other at least once a month. We have seen each other go through a lot whether it is a passing of a parent, getting married, or having a child. These are some very monumentious events in our lives and I can honestly say that they have helped me through every single one of those trying and joyous times.
I think most times we are together we still have as much fun together as we did when we all lived in the same apartment(except for Melissa, but it was like she always was a part of us). We still do act like we are in college sometimes like taking a certain trip to connecticut, going out for desserts, or just hanging out and being loud. After all that's what girls do best right?
Jess is the last one of us to get married...well there is Jen, we still have hopes for Jen that she will someday meet her prince charming! We love you Jen, even though you moved away from us! We still miss you and can't wait to see you at Jess' wedding.
Surprisingly all of our husbands are friends and tolerate us girls! Poor guys they didn't know they would have to deal with girls like us! But I also think that they know how important we are to each other!
There are things that only us girls know the meaning behind it. So we can be loud, but we always do have a lot of fun and laughter when we are together.
There are many days when I wish we all lived closer but in reality I know we can't...I wish we could all buy a house in the same neighborhood, but know the possibility of that is slim as well.Maybe we can all retire to Florida together!
All I know is that they are the best friends anyone could ever have! They put a light in my life and make me feel good about everything that has happened.
Just think if I didn't go to college, or Westfield for that matter, I would have never known these wonderful girls and their husbands. If I could go back to college I would as I miss it all the time and the free spirits we once were. Not having to worry about bills, houses, jobs, or our children. But I would only go back if I could meet the same people again. I would be lost without them. I am grateful for every exprience they have given me whether good or bad and I know that I can always cound on them!
Thank you girls for crossing my path in life!
I have met a lot of people in my life...some have come and gone, while many have stayed. As I do cherish each and every person I have come in contact with, shared a special memory with, or a not so good memory, I have to say the girls I met in college have become some of the best friends a girl could ever have!
Here we are almost 4 years out of college and we are still all great friends. We see each other at least once a month. We have seen each other go through a lot whether it is a passing of a parent, getting married, or having a child. These are some very monumentious events in our lives and I can honestly say that they have helped me through every single one of those trying and joyous times.
I think most times we are together we still have as much fun together as we did when we all lived in the same apartment(except for Melissa, but it was like she always was a part of us). We still do act like we are in college sometimes like taking a certain trip to connecticut, going out for desserts, or just hanging out and being loud. After all that's what girls do best right?
Jess is the last one of us to get married...well there is Jen, we still have hopes for Jen that she will someday meet her prince charming! We love you Jen, even though you moved away from us! We still miss you and can't wait to see you at Jess' wedding.
Surprisingly all of our husbands are friends and tolerate us girls! Poor guys they didn't know they would have to deal with girls like us! But I also think that they know how important we are to each other!
There are things that only us girls know the meaning behind it. So we can be loud, but we always do have a lot of fun and laughter when we are together.
There are many days when I wish we all lived closer but in reality I know we can't...I wish we could all buy a house in the same neighborhood, but know the possibility of that is slim as well.Maybe we can all retire to Florida together!
All I know is that they are the best friends anyone could ever have! They put a light in my life and make me feel good about everything that has happened.
Just think if I didn't go to college, or Westfield for that matter, I would have never known these wonderful girls and their husbands. If I could go back to college I would as I miss it all the time and the free spirits we once were. Not having to worry about bills, houses, jobs, or our children. But I would only go back if I could meet the same people again. I would be lost without them. I am grateful for every exprience they have given me whether good or bad and I know that I can always cound on them!
Thank you girls for crossing my path in life!
Friday, March 7, 2008
book meme
I've been tagged by Amy to do this fun book meme. I highly suggest that if you haven't visited Becky that you check out her blog. There have been many occasions where her humor has been the only thing to get me through a horrible day.
So, here are the rules: Pick up the closest book. Open the book, turn to page 123, count down to the fifth sentence on that page, and then post the next three sentences.
Closest book to me was the 8th installment of Harry Potter: and the Deathly Hallows. I've had the book since it came out and STILL haven't gotten to read it.
"Harry had the impression that the minister was wondering whether it was worthwhile opening hostilities this early. Very well then, together, he said, shrugging. He cleared his throat. I am here, as I'm sure you know, because of Albus Dumbledore's will.
so i shall tag Lori!
So, here are the rules: Pick up the closest book. Open the book, turn to page 123, count down to the fifth sentence on that page, and then post the next three sentences.
Closest book to me was the 8th installment of Harry Potter: and the Deathly Hallows. I've had the book since it came out and STILL haven't gotten to read it.
"Harry had the impression that the minister was wondering whether it was worthwhile opening hostilities this early. Very well then, together, he said, shrugging. He cleared his throat. I am here, as I'm sure you know, because of Albus Dumbledore's will.
so i shall tag Lori!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
The shovel...
this is a follow up to my last post.
Every morning or when we walk down the stairs we pass by the collage that I made for my dad's funeral. Sometimes I think it is weird that I stop with Avery in hand and say "good morning, grandpa" or "hi, grandpa". I might have a hard time explaining that someday, but for now its great! He gets a big smile on his face each and everytime he passes by it. and will occassionally scream at it. It helps to keep his memory alive, if not for me at least for my son. It also is filled with positive memories of my dad...at least the ones I can remember.
I'm not sure why I have such a hard time remembering the good ones. But someday I will compile a list...
So the reason for the title of the blog. We borrowed a shovel from my mom and its sitting out in our front yard for the moment. It was a shovel my dad always used for whatever he was doing around the yard. It makes me think of him when I see it. We also have the picnic table that my dad built us the summer before he died, so that table better last a very long time!
I also made eggs this morning and was trying to flip all 4 together in a circle, my dad would have been able too, I couldn't. But it got me to laugh! I think of him when I make homefries too b/c he was also good at making breakfast, even if he didn't always make enough for everyone!
I remember he would always cook food, but make it spicy, to the point where no one could eat it especially my mom. I learned most of my cooking from him as he was the one home at the time and made me learn. How else was I supposed to feed myself on my own?
so here's a list for you dad...I've been thinking about you alot lately and can't believe that is has been a year since you have really left my life. Although sometimes it feels like you are more in my life now than you ever have been...
1. walks in the woods: he would teach us how to find our way back in case we got lost. ALways look for the lake! our neighbor miracously found us in the woods once...still don't know how she did that!
2. fires in the back yard: when we were little we would beg to have them every weekend. But we had to find fire wood first. we would roast marshmellows, hotdogs, and play hide and seek.
3. he built us a tree house
4. we helped plant 4 trees in the yard one year, one for each kid...there might be 5 now...
5. he would jump out and scare the crap out of me in the middle of the night...not sure that is a good memory but is funny now. NOT so funny then.
6. he attempted to teach me to drive a stick shift...yeah not successful. But he did take me driving.
7. taking us to see the deer in the field, nothing like being up close to nature, but safe in the car.
8. night fishing...was ok, but got eaten alive by mosquitos..
9. swimming at night...but never alone!
10. going camping: taught us how to set up a tent, build a fire, etc.
11. sand castles at the beach, walking along the rock in York searching for starfish, snails, hermit crabs, etc.
12. eating lobster every year we went to maine
13. always calling my now husband Tim...apparently they look alike!(tim is my uncle on my mom's side)
and the list shall continue, avery just doesn't want to sleep!
Every morning or when we walk down the stairs we pass by the collage that I made for my dad's funeral. Sometimes I think it is weird that I stop with Avery in hand and say "good morning, grandpa" or "hi, grandpa". I might have a hard time explaining that someday, but for now its great! He gets a big smile on his face each and everytime he passes by it. and will occassionally scream at it. It helps to keep his memory alive, if not for me at least for my son. It also is filled with positive memories of my dad...at least the ones I can remember.
I'm not sure why I have such a hard time remembering the good ones. But someday I will compile a list...
So the reason for the title of the blog. We borrowed a shovel from my mom and its sitting out in our front yard for the moment. It was a shovel my dad always used for whatever he was doing around the yard. It makes me think of him when I see it. We also have the picnic table that my dad built us the summer before he died, so that table better last a very long time!
I also made eggs this morning and was trying to flip all 4 together in a circle, my dad would have been able too, I couldn't. But it got me to laugh! I think of him when I make homefries too b/c he was also good at making breakfast, even if he didn't always make enough for everyone!
I remember he would always cook food, but make it spicy, to the point where no one could eat it especially my mom. I learned most of my cooking from him as he was the one home at the time and made me learn. How else was I supposed to feed myself on my own?
so here's a list for you dad...I've been thinking about you alot lately and can't believe that is has been a year since you have really left my life. Although sometimes it feels like you are more in my life now than you ever have been...
1. walks in the woods: he would teach us how to find our way back in case we got lost. ALways look for the lake! our neighbor miracously found us in the woods once...still don't know how she did that!
2. fires in the back yard: when we were little we would beg to have them every weekend. But we had to find fire wood first. we would roast marshmellows, hotdogs, and play hide and seek.
3. he built us a tree house
4. we helped plant 4 trees in the yard one year, one for each kid...there might be 5 now...
5. he would jump out and scare the crap out of me in the middle of the night...not sure that is a good memory but is funny now. NOT so funny then.
6. he attempted to teach me to drive a stick shift...yeah not successful. But he did take me driving.
7. taking us to see the deer in the field, nothing like being up close to nature, but safe in the car.
8. night fishing...was ok, but got eaten alive by mosquitos..
9. swimming at night...but never alone!
10. going camping: taught us how to set up a tent, build a fire, etc.
11. sand castles at the beach, walking along the rock in York searching for starfish, snails, hermit crabs, etc.
12. eating lobster every year we went to maine
13. always calling my now husband Tim...apparently they look alike!(tim is my uncle on my mom's side)
and the list shall continue, avery just doesn't want to sleep!
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