18 month dr.'s appointment

I took Avery to his 18 month dr's appointment today. Overall it went fairly well...here are the highlights.

-he screamed bloody murder when we were trying to see how tall he was. they have him lie down on the table to measure...and he is approx. 31.75 inches.

-he screamed again when the dr. came in and started to exam him.he's never done that before...but dr. said it was normal.

-he now weighs 22.9-22.10 lbs. had to be weighed twice. dr. wasnt to happy that he hasn't gained weight so we go back in 3 months for a weight check. if he doesn't gain, then he will go for testing then. hopefully its just the case of him being active and having daddy's metabolism!

-it took 2 nurses and myself to hold him down for his 2 shots. yeah that was fun! at least now he is done with shots until he goes to school.

-the dr said he is healthy, sounds like he eats, and sleeps well(for the most part he does) doesn't look like he is failing to thrive.

Now I'm not supposed to worry that there is nothing wrong with him for the next 3 months...yeah that is easier said than done!

Happy Birthday to Keith

Yesterday my husband turned 30. Yeah hes old...ok so he is older than me and he always will be. But he is also the one that gets carded(when I don't) or when we both get carded and they say things like "he doesn't look like he is older than you!" good thing for him...bad for me. Someday it might catch up to him, but he should enjoy his youth while he has it!

We had a party for him over the weekend. Mostly family and church "groupies". A few friends were able to stop by. It wasn't what I wanted, but it worked out.

For his bday all he wanted was the scooba. Its robot mop. We already have the roomba and he is in love with it b/c he doesn't have to vac anymore. Avery is enthralled with it! So we went last night and used his bday money, some giftcards I had, and then paid the rest out of pocket. Mopping is one thing that doesn't get done much around here although it should. I hate it and dh never seems to have time for it. He has 2 things to do in the house, clean the floors and help with laundry. At least the floors get done now on a reg. basis.

So after my giftcard didn't want to work, I had to pay for it. Hopefully I can get the money back on that giftcard as it was brand new and should have worked. Well, we "mopped" the floor down stairs last night and Keith couldn't believe the color of the water...yuck! this is what happens when you mop the floor with a dirty mop and water. now it is running in the hallway and we did avery's room earlier. so far we are very impressed. we have all hard floors in the house so it works out very well. Who knew life could be so easy with a robot doing the work for you...

Memorial Day Weekend

was a busy one as most weekends have been lately. We took Avery to the park and I set up for Keith's bday party on saturday. Sunday, Keith was at church until his party at 2.

My grandparents arrived from Fl and saw my house for the first time. They also saw Avery for the 2nd time in his short life. Then off we went to Keith's party. It was pretty good. The day was gorgeous and most of us sat inside. We had cake and ice cream, opened presents, and of course Avery was the center of attention. He didn't have a nap that day so he was abit spacey, but was good as usual.

Then Keith and I were able to go out sunday night for some adult mommy/daddy time! We went out with our friends Kristen and Brian, and Shaun and Noriko. They took us out for Japanese which I was glad Noriko was with us as she is Japanese and could tell us what was good and what things were. It was also a Chinese/thai place as well. Keith tried sushi and actually liked it. I didn't try it...I tried Miso soup which was really good and I ordered tempura(basically fried chicken and veggies with panko) and Pad Thai. I like them both. The Pad Thai was spicy so I was only able to eat half of it. Keith order some kind of sushi he didn't like, but luckily shaun liked it and he ate it. It was nice going out with a group of friends without Avery. This was Shaun's bday gift to Keith. Then we went out for ice cream at Friendly's with Kristen and Brian, and then went back to their house for a bit and came home.

We got to sleep in until 7:30 the next morning before Avery finally got up. My mom, sister, and I went to the mall to get some stuff and had lunch. Another mommy free day. Then Keith had a brilliant idea to take Avery to church...we lasted 20 mins before I had to take him out.

Overall it was a good weekend, but even though it was a 3 day weekend it still went by VERY fast!

ugh...

I seriously haven't been sick ALL winter. Apparently I must have a great immune system at the moment. Now I don't seem to be so lucky...my head hurts, my nose is stuffy, and i have a sore throat. I'm not sure yet if its allergies or a cold. Avery has had a runny nose all week too...but you know how kids can be, plus I think he is teething. To top it off, I slept like poo last night woke up at 2 and didn't go back to sleep until 4:30...I may be dragging bum later. I can already feel it.

We are off to Keith's 30th bday party soon. In hopes I can get the cake in time! I couldn't figure out how to carry a cake and an 18 month old at the same time. Plus the bakery is on a VERY busy main road. Hopefully my mom comes in time.

Another positve to the day besides seeing friends and getting out of the house is that my brother in law called last night. He and his girlfriend are bringing us out to dinner for Japanese tonight. Along with Kristen and Brian. I was also able to get my mom to babysit so we can go out with out avery. Not that I don't love my son, but after the week I've had this might be just what I need. Plus, Noriko is Japanese, so she can tell us what things are and what's good. It should be a good experience I hope...and if its not well I'm not paying for it! I'm very excited and Keith thinks I'm too excited! but what does he know....

off to find some cold medicine or something....

getting better

you will be glad to know that I feel much better today than yesterday. At least the sun is out shining, Keith and I talked, and so I'm not feeling as horrible as I was.

The boys are still constantly fighting which is starting to wear on my patience. i'm not sure how else to stop it. I've tried separating them, but that lasts for 10 secs. Or we scream b/c we can't torture Avery. It is mostly J aggrevating Avery. Sometimes its Avery too, but mostly J. SOmetimes I just let it go, but I can't always watch either one of them get hurt. Usually its J, grabbing onto Avery's shirt, hair, or toy. Avery has learned how to say "stop it" but of course it doesn't help. J just laughs thinks its a riot and it so isn't...I may have to talk to his mom again, but last all I got was a "well avery will need to toughen up!" i don't want avery to be a wimp, but I also don't want him to resort to violence! ugh... at least its a long week so my poor avery will get a break!

Avery was up until 11:30 last night. He wasn't NOT having being put to bed. It didn't help that Keith wasn't home until 9 either. I finally figured it was Avery's teeth b/c he's been chewing, drooling, and boogie nose, along with a diaper rash and not eating much. So I gave him some motrin and laid on the couch with him. He wasn't wanting daddy of course. Finally he drifted off to sleep. He was up at 8/830 and now he is napping again. Poor little guy, hope he isn't getting sick but that is just teeth.

I on the other hand have been sneezing up a STORM!! so its either allergies or a cold...yay. OF course if it is allergies I did have the bright idea to hang clothes outside today. But at least Im saving on the electric bill!

What Matters Most

its a book by Luanne Rice. GREAT GREAT GREAT book! i truly enjoyed it, once I became NOT confused anymore.

Its one of those books that in the beginning it flips back and forth between 2 stories, different characters and then I thought I had it figured out and the character changed names. But still the same person.

Its basically about a nun who before she takes her vows becomes pregant ends up giving the child up and goes on to become a nun. Meanwhile the father of the baby is madly in love with the mother for YEARS!

The baby grows up and has his own love story to tell, but not before he goes through lots of hardship.

Of course, I can't give away the ending...but it was another book I was sad to see end. I also finished it before it was due back at the library! which is a great accomplishment for me lately!

so it seems...

that once you are down there is no getting back up and people just constantly just kick you right back down.

It doesn't seem to matter what I do lately but can NOT get out of this funk. one thing happens, then another, and another, and another!!

I constantly clean my house and yet it still is dirty/cluttered(i guess that happens when you have an 18 month old, a husband, and a dog) but come on can't a girl catch a break? Apparently not...

I stay home EVERYDAY and when I do go out its to the grocery store nothing ever fun. The price of groceries and the cost of living might just be breaking us and I can't help but wonder what will come next...

I have no one to watch my son other than my husband. I can't always get him to take time off work so I can go to the dr or dentist when needed. Most times I just take Avery with me, but I can't take him to the dentist when I'm getting a filling(which is tons of fun in itself!) I had to reschedule the filling b/c people can't be bothered to take time to spend time with a certain somebody. Its not like I am always pawning off my child to someone. He is with me every minute of everyday(mostly). My husband and I can't go out without him for this very reason.

I plan a party and now that is blowing up in my face and all i was trying to do was do something nice for my deserving husband. Now he can't have a very important person in his life come....b/c its a "hassle". ALthough, I'm thinking I'm going to go get her anyway and if they want to be mad let them be...

I am just so tired of fighting and trying to meet everyone's expectations. I shouldn't have to live for anyone else but myself and my son. I shouldn't have to have such high standards and then have them come crashing down! Afterall i am a human being and NO one can be perfect all the time. I question my ability of being a good mom all the time and when people question it or comment on it, boy does that make me feel even shittier. I for once would like to hear I'm doing a great job instead of "oh he hits...or fresh isn't he" no he's not fresh he's a little boy who is exploring the world around you. who is going to test you every second of his life....

I try so hard to keep everyone held together and happy, well what about me? why don't deserve to be happy and not constantly have my life fulfilled with others expectations!

I sometimes wonder if I was cut out to be in this life I am living now...maybe I need a professional! Because I just feel very crappy right now!