that's what I've been on today! It's bad enough that I still have this cold and it seems to only be getting worse, so I will be going to the reg. dr tomorrow morning. The ob/gyn said to wait until monday after taking sudafed, but unless I see some drastic changes tonight I'm going tomorrow. I have pain/pressure in my face, behind my eye, and my ears are blocked. I would like some reprieve before what I"m about to post now...
We went in for yet another u/s and dr's appt this morning. I had said to Keith last night that I think the baby turned, but he thought it was just the baby's butt...well come to find out I was right and NOT what I wanted to hear. My fluid levels were down a little(21 from 25) but still high in the dr's book. It is still possible that the baby will turn again...but at 37.5 weeks it doesn't seem possible.
Oy...so off to the dr. We actually saw one of the midwive's instead of the dr that I thought I was going to see. Basically we had to schedule a c-section(c/s). They won't try to flip the baby(inversion) b/c of my prior c/s which I'm ok with b/c I don't want that extra risk and then have to go off for another c/s anyway. I couldn't schedule it until at least 39 weeks, I was aiming for Friday the 13th even though that doesn't sound like a good day, but schedule wise it was going to work.
Right now its for Monday the 16th. I needed it this week as that is the week my sister will be able to help out. We are trying to get Keith to work as much as possible during this time as he has no vacation time and we obviously need the money. Hopefully it will work out and someone will be able to help me with a the baby...I'm really not that worried about Avery, but maybe a little! I know we will manage and do what we have to do. They say recovery of a repeat c/s is better so I really hope it is, i just didn't want it this time and wanted to ACTUALLY experience labor and giving birth naturally.
I had been back and forth so much this pregnancy that I had FINALLY set my sights on the vbac...and now my dreams came crashing down. I had pictured giving birth naturally, catching the baby, feel it on my chest, watching Keith cut the cord, and nursing right off...and now all my dreams are GONE!
I think Keith could see it that I was scared and disappointed...he told me it was going to be ok and we would get through it. I told him easy for him to say, he's not the one on the operating table, numbed from the chest down, and getting sliced opened. He said no, but I'll be there to hold your hand.
I cried all the way home as I was able to stop and think and process what had just happened. I was also listening to the radiothon about the NICU and PICU and that had me bawling as well!
Needless to say I was a mess and the dr told me to take sudafed, so I was an emotional basket case AND drugged!
I seem to feel a little better about it now, but it still shocking and disappointing. Hopefully I will be able to come to terms with it before next monday. Keep us all in your prayers as I am still scared, but would like some peace about it. I also want a nice healthy baby and my recovery will go well!
I can't ask for to much at this point...right?
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Please do not give up hope at this point! There is SO much time for that sweet baby to turn! The worst thing to do now is sit around a twiddle your thumbs :)
((HUGS)) I pray that sweet baby learns its' place ;-)
I know this is hard for you since you struggled with this decision for so long. But, as you said if you are going to have a c/s again why go through labor and a c/s for the 2nd time. My recovery was a lot shorted with Colby's c/s than Blake's. I didn't stay in hospital as long and I was driving before the 2 weeks was up. The hard thing was not being able to pick up Blake, but at least Avery is a lot older than Blake was so that should help too
You know I love you and if you need anything, let me know, even if it's to keep an eye on Avery for an hour or so, so you can sleep or relax. Miss you lots and thinking of you always!
Half of labor is the preparation for it. I was prepared for a C-section with Madison because she was breech for so long but turned at the very end. I was mentally prepared for the C-section and once that was gone, it was really, really hard. I hope you have good weekend, though, and can rest before the baby comes!
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